I've lost her.
Now that I have lost my greatest friend I've ever had in my whole entire life, I felt lost. I have no where to go. I mean, I do have other friends around, but they're not like her. She's one in a million. I've known her since I was in Form2, and she was a year younger. We were inseparable for once. Even my classmates went emotional seeing us so attached to each other. She was a sister from a different mother. She was always there for me through thick and thin. But now? For the stupidest reason ever, I've lost her.
FOR REAL.
Actually, all these while, she has been replying all my messages. Yes, ALL. I don't why, but all her texts went to my screened messages inbox. I just realised that. She's still pissed at me. I know it was all my fault. All mine. I don't blame her for not forgiving me, or anything. But I hope she knows that she has been the greatest friend ever. Period.
For the first time in three months, i shed my expensive tears. I was reading through my stuffs that contains 1001 memories of her. I missed her. She gave me a spiderman necklace, and I'm going to wear it forever. *bullshit
Maybe she's still shocked with what I told her. I shall give her time. I don't want it to end here. She told me that I'm on my own now. But I can't. She's my sane keeper. She knows how much she meant to me. Sheesh.
I don't know. I don't know. I don't know.
i know being broken friendship is hurt, but you better let her go. She had her own life, you can't control. You know friends are not angels, they are human. Human can't 100% understand what the other people are thinking. so Friends, are like your crymate, your adviser, your laughing buddy, basically, friends are someone who actually at least care about you. you cannot expect them to give 100% commitment to you, but at least, they care about you.
ReplyDeleteLet her be. She need some freedom. You are grown-up. stop crying and begging. People will look down on you and think that you are weak girl.
- faray