so long

I hate what I'm (currently) feeling right now. It just sucked I think I could puke my intestines down my throat now. But its okay, I so can live without The Ultimate(s). So now I'm going to write this shit out of piss(ness) and also love(ness) plus farewell(ness). It might be horrible, but its for our own good. Each and one of us.

I've gone down the lane with TI for quite some time and now I think its pretty hard for me to let go. But I HAVE TO. Its time to. I need a rest. Out from everything. I had my part. Now I'm going to have to do it alone. 

HAHA, but then again, I don't do single much. I always have backups. You guys need not to worry okay. I doubt I'm calling you guys again. Although I say I would. Lets just keep this professional okay.

DR, the reason why I said such thing was because I have no mood already. You know no shit about what's been happening around me. I know its not professional if I include my personal life in this, but its just that, they came at the wrong timing. Sheesh. Why do I even bother to explain to someone who wouldn't understand. But really, I appreciate you for being there for me for the past few months. Helping me out with my side career. You've been a good friend. I'll still be a friend for you, and you can still tell me everything. Everything about L too. ;p I hope February 13th will happen. But beware, its Friday, and its 13th. You know? Friday the 13th? I don't want you to jinx your (love) life. Haha! But its okay, I'll be praying for you. :D I know how obsessive you've been about L, although she doesn't know, and you being in denial. HAHA. WTF ok ok off topic. Thanks for everything okay? :D I appreciate your presence in my life, although for awhile. 

JI, thanks for listening and talked to me properly last night. You're a lot easier to talk to than you know who. (hehe) So yeah, I am glad we attained mutual understanding and we was hoping for the better. You know how much this meant to me. And I know how much you guys would like to stand up on your own without me too. Its good you know, you've been a really gempak instrumental dude. And its really amazing, off all people, YOU can approach me better. HAHA don't blush la mamat. You blush you look like a tomato. HAHA. Okay. But what you said was true. I may have said things I shouldn't to DR, not realizing about the situation. Haha, but now I'm glad. I'm just glad. At least I've said everything to you. And I hope you won't tell others la about it. Malu doh. Well then, I'm going to miss your wtf-ness and cheap slate lawak yang ehem ehem I pun taktau apa I nak cakap ni. Thanks JI! :D We shall work things out for the last time! :D

J,H, and R. Mmmmm I didn't get to know you guys that well yet. But I know you guys are talented good people. :) Don't stop mengaruting la ok, you guys are the best people to mengarut with. ;D 

J, we baru work things together for awhile, so I might not know much about you, but I see that you should really improve your skills. I know I'm a nobody to say this, but you can go far you know. But wtf, study dulu. :D I like to see your facial expression while doing your job. Macam celaka la buat I nak gelak macam haram. Seriously, and whenever you buat salah, you'll do that "I'M INNOCENT!" face and it will also make me laugh eventually. Hehe. So funny. Once, masa at your place with the rest, you wanted to play everything, all at once, and its just so kelakar, how nice the hasil is. Get it? I don't get it, I'm sorry. Hehe.

H, I love your hasil kerja. Seriously. Even my friend, F, said that you are really talented and you belong to this field, but at the same time, you're a super brilliant genius. You owe me big time, remember? So I don't know when are we gonna start owing each other again. Hehe, you're such a charm la. Among all, you're the quiet-est. But I like it how we managed to get along with each other pretty well, although we don't see much of each other lately. Its okay, you keep on studying on fly fly fly far away and come back with grace and honours. Ok? There's not much to say la kan. You still rock my heart! 

R, I haven't heard from you for quite awhile. I kinda miss US with YOU, you see? Like all together, lawakness. Hehe, and your unsincere laugh yang boleh buat orang rasa nak tumbuk you big time. ;s You cool la mat, so nice of you to put up with my nonsense, and also my friend's. I kinda miss your brother, M, his mengarutness yang melampaui batas. Where is he wei? Lost in the wind. Just like you. :( We should so hangout one day ok?

Last but not least, DW, the newbie. I'm sorry I've been a little harsh on you. Its just that, I hate being taken for granted on, in other words, stealing the limelight by people I just knew. But you didn't know the real situation. Its okay. :) And you are really good, I have to say. I know we've a lot of things in common, that's why we can barely get along. But you're cool la. Hope to see more of you one day. :) Make it big, please? I like. And yeah, please, take care of the Ultimates for me. You deserve some lights too. :D

So everybody, I hope that one day, one fine day, we will come back from wherever, and still be this way, minus the conflicts. I'd like to see us in 10 years time. JI and DR, remember my promise? Aman Rimba, ON ME. With our families. HOLYSHIZNIT. Can't wait. But then again, it was really sweet while it lasted. Remember every single thing, and we will be IT. :D You guys have helped me, alot, in so many ways. Spending time with you awesome people (inside out) made me realize what life is actually about, indirectly. You know me, TAMAK. So yeah, it taught me bit by bit about what's going on today, tomorrow, and even yesterday. So, whatever it is, do make this last shot sweet while it lasted. Ok? So long, good night. Farewell, just for awhile. You guys are going to make it big. Make me proud. Make ourselves proud. You guys are (by far) the best I've worked with.

lots of (real) love,

B.