medication needed

Hello.

Its so funny. I hear this happen to other people. Other families. Other surrounding.

And now, I guess its my turn?

I'm sick and tired living like this. I know this shit just happened, but I'm already giving up. I am not used to being followed. Especially by things like this. I never thought it'd happen to me and my family.

Of all people. Me. ISH.

Because of this, I cannot do those things I like to do dah. Well, I can't go out at night that often anymore. Or maybe not at all. Probably can la, like once or twice a week. ISH.

I can't sleep normally now. I can only sleep after Subuh. No matter how tired I am. If not. Hmm.

I don't like la. A lot of things got to change soon. I can't sing that often anymore. But I want to.

The worst of all, I have Cinderella Curfew now. Not from my family. From that uncle. Yes be home before 10pm. 12pm is the maximum.

Ok B, look at the bright side, at least you get to spend more time with your family member. AT NIGHT. Hehe.

I'm mentally disturbed.

Chisdale betul la benda benda ni. Buat sakit hati je. Come on la KALAU TAK PUAS HATI jangan la sampai sending sending. Confront sudah. Be a true human being. Tak main ah jalan kotor. Main belakang pulak. Orang lain yang susah.

Stupid idiots. If anything happen to my family, I swear to God you have to fucking pay for it.

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I'm coming back home tomorrow. Ditching 2 classes. I know wtf yeah but I really can't do this. I'm alone in Melaka. My family is nowhere near me. I'm not used to all this. I can't handle it on my own. I need time. I need space. I need freedom. 

I need.. I need...

I need Uwan. :( So sad la I'm writing like this. I'm only 98km away from her, but I feel like crying whenever I think about Uwan. She's my tunggak kehidupan right now. And Mama. I want to go home. I can't do this. Atleast not alone.

Sheesh I sound like a crybaby. Haha, so funny. I have to say that I'm glad having The Earth around me. Although she's busy talking to The Sun and thinking of The Moon, she still have time for me. She taught me things that can comfort me, and make me feel better. Teach me what to do, and how to handle things. So nice. If she's not around, my world is doomed. OK OK you get it, I love you. :D

Okay B don't la sound so sad. You have the world ahead of you. Poyo sial aku ni. Tah pape la pulak kan.

Oh damn, I can hear the birds chirping. And its 4.34am. I think I should try sleeping now.

Toodles? :)

OH YEAH, I need my Prince Charming. PRONTO! Ma, don't speak. :D