not me

You guys, don't get confused. Haha, this is so funny. Because of the previous post, 5 of my friends texted me asking "Babe are you okay?" or "B are you sick??" or "What did the doctor said?" HAHA. Alhamdulillah I sihat aja. The post isn't about me. It is about a very sick friend. K? Thanks for being concern though. Ada jugak orang sayang dekat I. Hehe. So touched. BUT that's not the case here.

Now, I hope my friend will live longer. Though we are as small as a speck of dust compared to fate. Don't worry boo, you know I will be there for you. Always. If it's a year we're talking about, then a year it is.

Today, Khairul told me that 4 of his blockmates passed away last night. Car accident. Langgar trailer. Innalillah. See? Death is everywhere. We don't know who's next. But one thing I know for sure, I'm going to treasure this moment, so little time, yet so much to do with my baby girl.

'"Jangan kau bimbang sayang, di mana ku berada, dengan siapa ku bersama, jangan bimbang ku tetap kau yang punya.' Haaaaaaih.... Suddenly I feel so scared. With not much time left, I'm scared. Of course I'm preparing myself for the worst. But ya know.. Right at the back of my mind, there's this really disturbing thought. I'm only twenty. I've not done enough good deeds yet. I need more time, please. My vision is failing on me. The right side of my body is very numb already. I am scared shitless. And I know I can't do this alone. Bedah, do know that whatever happens, I love you very much. Kau lah teman aku, dunia akhirat. When I'm gone, I want you to keep on singing. Okay? Because you're my precious nightingale. I don't want you to give up on anything. Especially when it comes to the guy of your dreams. Aku sayang kau, perempuan! You are the sister that I never had. Make sure you still keep in contact with our family. Aku ada ke, aku takde ke, sama aje. Ok? Keep that in mind. If you miss me, hehe, just take a stroll down memory lane. Our stoner moments, our aman rimba moments, kerja kerja gila kita, semua lah. Take good care of yourself, bitch! I love you infinity.

Yo negro, I love you man! You're the coolest big brother anyone could ever ask for. Thank you for everything! I love you loads! Though I won't be around to see you get married and have kids and all, do know that I love you and I wish you all the best in life. You'll meet someone very special soon enough, and she will love you just as much as you love her. And when you get kids nanti, do name your daughter after me. Hehehe! Take care aite? I love you!Gila sedih tulis benda benda merapu macam ni. Tapi takde lah merapu mana kan? Again, I am being very very very realistic. So yeah. For now, untuk dua orang kesayangan I aje. Yang lain-lain tu, nanti lah. When the time is near nanti. Bedah, Nizam, I sayang you two!!!!"

Now, how can I not miss you already? Don't worry baby girl. I'm coming home today. And our plan's back to normal, I don't care. OK?